The first time you looked at me, the rain had just stopped  
I thought it was the gentlest slope in the world  
I walked slowly toward you, held my breath so small  
Afraid to disturb the rain still falling in your eyes  

Later you said the umbrella that day was borrowed  
The smile was just polite, not meant for me  
But I clearly heard you pause for one second  
That one second, I planned out my entire life  

You never texted me first  
But I took every "mm" of yours as a plea to stay  
I thought if I held on, we'd reach the end  
Turns out you just forgot to say "stop waiting"  

I'm drowning in your silence  
Even saying "help" feels like bothering you  
You clearly hear the water rise above my throat  
Then turn and say, "Windy tonight. Sleep early."  

I can't cry out a whole verse of hate  
Because you never once said you loved me  
You just never said you didn't  
So I trapped myself in the rain of that one second  

I learned to check your phone battery  
Guess if you've been talking to someone else all day  
You said I overthink, and I really believed you  
Took my heart out, cut it into the shape you like  

Then I saw you smile at someone else  
That look — you never once gave it to me  
Only then I understood — I didn't love your kindness  
I loved the care I made up in your tiny glances back  

You answer every question with silence  
I answer every silence with waiting  
This love never had two people in it  
Just me — acting, crying, pretending you hurt too  

I'm drowning in your silence  
Even struggling feels rude to you  
You clearly see me sink where no light reaches  
Then say, "You're great. You deserve someone better."  

I hate myself so much I'm afraid to hate you  
Because you never promised me anything  
You just never refused, never came close, never left  
So I turned myself into an island  

You know I'll always wait  
So you don't have to do anything  
You win  
I lost every single piece of myself  

Will you ever suddenly remember one day  
There was someone who memorized even your silences?  
But by that day  
I won't have any breath left to drown  

I'm drowning in your silence  
My last breath, you use it to make a sentence  
You say, "I hope you're happy"  
I smile and drink it down like chewing broken glass  

You never said you loved me  
And I never had the right to let go  
The rain has stopped  
But I'm still here — waiting for an umbrella that was never mine  

You say goodnight  
I say okay  
You hang up  
I'm still listening — to the busy tone of you  

Was it worth it…  
I don't know. Forget it.

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